tired early

for once. usually i sleep 1-2 hours later.

weird.




this week has been semi-productive. i went to drayson a good amount and developed a working out/exercising schedule.

i plan to go to drayson twice a day for swimming, once for using the weight/cardio room. also drink at least one protein smoothie a day and do free weights at home and crunches.


i did this because im trying to counter the laziness ive been getting myself into. ive been at home watching shows that i got from robert for days on end literally. good thing is im halfway done through justice league and just finished the 3rd season of dexter. next week should be a little more productive since i start VBS for japanese church. random, but i feel really stupid for being so on time about my credit card payment. i already scheduled a payment thats not even due until a month from now, forgetting that it defeats the purpose of having a credit card...which is to defer payments. RETARDED steven -____-. ill see if i can take back my 1st payment,


3 messages to people that have been confusing me lately:

sidenote: are you serious? unless i dont comprehend well, wow. please tell me you are not serious with rekindling that shiz. but whatever its your life.


sidenote #2: you're confusing me BADLY. no actually SEVERELY. what do you want from me?


sidenote #3: i need space and distance. sorry if i seem out of place but let me take a week to reevaluate our friendship. for some reason i think it means WAY more to me than it does to you. i tell you so many things, you hardly give me anything. granted you're not the most open person in the world, but still its me were talking about. ive done so much for you and i dont expect anything in return, but some back would be nice. i feel as though im the last priority everytime and the only time i get from you is if you happen to have an opening. the only times when you even ask how im doing or contact me is if you want something or you know im not in the best mood towards you. ive treated them like get out of jail free cards up until this point, but no more. you're a hard worker and i know you can do it because ive seen you before. if you want our friendship to last at this level, pickup your load..... on second thought, pick up mine too. carry everything and see how hard it is. no more free cards, no more always catering to you. your turn

today was good. i got to play cello again even though i havent in a awhile. also im deciding whether or not to switch to BA or stay performance major. lets hope it goes well.




this is my favorite pillowcase in all the world. i wish i knew where it was made so i could get more of them. this is my childhood pillow dont hate.