oh how

priorities can change based solely on time.

like any of the people im talking about will see this, and
mot def. not have the guts to even talk to me but:

there was a time, when all my energy and time went into this task,
but no more. also, sometimes people are just unappreciative no matter
how much you've done for them. i mean people make mistakes right?
but i guess only God can truly forgive and forget, despite
how many times a person says they have - itll always still be there.

funny how you think people have changed based on time and distance,
but come to find out, they haven't at all. well, what can you do? nothing.
how unfair is it that people can blame you for their problems and
mess-ups when they've also done the exact same thing to you?
its a two-way street. So while they continue to bitch about everything,
and act like the only victim, i will continue to pray for them, no matter
how hard I want to wish them hell. Its not my place to judge them
or to complain how unfair it is, but it is my place to care and love them
just as I should. So while they continue to act like a child and wallow
themselves in their immaturity, I will take the higher ground thank you.
THIS IS COLLEGE, not high-school, so grow up and stop blaming others
which include your up-bringing, family, and friends. They certainly
influence, but by no means determine your life story. Stop copying other
people's novels and go write your own, im sure you have more than
enough to sort out and talk about.

its quite unfortunate also when you come to the realization that some
friends are only friends because of common friends. come to realize
that they only cared about me because of my shared experiences with
our shared friends,so how effed is that? im not mad, just disappointed,
because ive wasted so much damn time with them. sorry, ill take the
friends of the heart option, and i actually have those. some friends will
just have to go because they don't help you grow positively, and i think
ive identified who has and who hasn't.

*sidenote:
i CANT WAIT TILL SUMMER! have so many things planned.
im trying to plan ONE day, where we can just all CHILL.
i mean a full dayfrom like 6-7 am, then have a sleepover =D
also, i really want to take a 2-3 day hiking trip (photography of course, and the enjoyment of nature) to yosemite.
seriously, ill drive. but i want to do it. what else? GC is this summer,
so can't wait to see my childhood friends and family in atlanta! possibly even visiting the home state.
then have weddings to play for also this summer. work? possibly,
and def. working out. but my summer is basically free, unless i get to go to the Philippines
for missionary work, and the possibility of summer classes but still. FREE. let me know what you wanna do yeah?

hair, please grow out so i can stop wearing hats, thanks!