stevendebulgado

im currently reading and comprehending, and i seriously cant help but feel so incredibly down and hurt. im still recovering from a previous blow, and from that i am just barely getting there. i cannot help but feel like 2nd place or like a afterthought. it really really pains me to see myself like this because im usually alot stronger.

i have set goals and paths for myself in the future. but now theres a possibility that i may have to cross paths with this? lord, what do i do when i finally do cross paths? i might punch them in the face! and that wouldnt be so nice. sometimes it would be nice to be ignorant. but instead of pouting for myself or having a sob story, idk. i guess my path is meant to parallel yours, just were not driving in the same car.

thats fine.


steven its decided now. no matter what, you are going to push through with ur plans. dont let this stop you.

sidenote: master class went well today. played 3rd movement pretty darn well if i do say so myself. it feels good to improve in my playing. sometimes too good. now i wonder how i would be if i pursued music as a career? guess ill never know. but heres to dentistry! =D